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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Hmm..... Thought today gonna b a happy day, thinking that things will gonna b ok.... But it's turns out everything is not ok now.... Everything seems turning up side down!! What a hectic life... Sometimes, the truth is unacceptable, it's cruel, it's painful!!! I can't bare the pain any more, it really hurt me inside out...... Why.....???? Why does it has to happened???

This is Simple plan's songs call "untitled". I have changed a little bit of the lyric...... Just to shout out how i feel now....

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm standing here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Monday, October 26, 2009

Graduation Day

Finally n finally, after 3 hard years of struggling and studying, i finally able to finish my study!!! 24th October 2009, one of the most important date in my life. Though all the persons that i love is not able to attend the graduation day, still, thanks to Allah for giving me this good chances to have this tiny little success in my life!! ~~







Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Not Supposed.......

“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do... But I'm sorry.... I can't help myself, I'm in love with you....”




Friday, October 16, 2009

ShOck N fInAlLy!!!

It's been almost 1year he walked away from me, left me with million of question, makes me wonder. I always asked my self :" what have i do wrong?? Why dos he has to walk away just like that?? am i really that bad?? why why and why???" the same question has wondering in my mind for such a long time.

Finally, in one night, 'Rinnngggg......" incoming message. Thought that message is from my friend. Then, OMG!!!!! I really cannot believe my eyes. It's him!!!! Telling me how much he missed me, asking me how's life, and much more other freaking heartbreaking questions..... All this time, i thought that i will happy if one day he will call me back and telll me how sorry he is, and how much he missed me. But obviously, I was wrong!!!! Why do he has to come back??? why did he come back after i have decided to let him go and forget everything about him??? Why??

After that night, i finally realise one important thing. He no longer important to me. After all, he already dead in my heart. And thanks to him, I finally realise that how impotant is that 'someone' to me.... :) Sorry if it sounds complicated and weird, but yeah!!!!! i'm so sure now!!! Though he is still trying to contact me lately, but SORRY!! I really HATE him now, I cannot accept him as my friend anymore. Thanks for everything, and please, keep dissappear from my life!!!! He can't blame me for my decision, cause i already told him once. Once i have made a decision, that's it!! There will no turning back. Frankly, I do honestly deeply falling in love with him before, but now, that feeling is no longer for him, cause someone has already took my heart away....... He is the one who has heal my brokenheart. Thanks to my beloved...... =)