Monday, August 31, 2009


That's how i feel!!! :)

Friday, August 28, 2009


Not sure why.... Today feel sad and down.... Sad sad sad.... It's so weird!!!
Hate to feel this way.... Feel like wanna cry out loud......

Maybe i miss my parents, it's been a while i didn't go back to shah alam...... *but they do come to gombak last 2 days... hhaha* And maybe... i really miss him a lot!!! I'm so sure, my feeling for him is growing stronger now, real hope that the feelings is true!!! Still, a bit scared..... It's not that i have no enough confident on him.... but me myself is the biggest problem!!! I do not have the confident in myself, me myself is my biggest enemy!!! What shall i do now?? Can someone please tell me???

He is the one who taught and give me courage to be honest to myself..... yes i did it... Still and why??? Why do i feel so unsecure?? It's seems like i started to feel like i'm alone again.... Everyone is leaving me..... Save me....... Gosh.... Wish he know how much i love and miss him............

Thursday, August 27, 2009

CouNt D0wN

Wee... After tomorrow, there will only left 4 days to go to finish my internship here.... So Excited! But at the same time, feel sad and scared too!!! Wanna know why??? Em... Let me tell u now......

I feel SAD- it is because all the colleague here is nice and great, i love them so much. Here, i would like to say thanks to everyone, kak wyd, Alphonsa, Sherry, Brian, Julie, Svami, Andrew, Bey and others. Ya, not forgetting another 2 who no longer work here, both of them are my everdearest friend and 'Sifu' here, Alexis and alex. Thanks a lot u guys for taking care of me, and taught me a lot during my internship at MyEvents. :)

I feel Scared- For this 3 month, supposedly every week, i have to send my report (logbook) to sherry, sadly until now, i still haven't started to write anything!! Nil!!! Silly me.... Now only 5 days left, and i really have to struggle to finish up the whole report for this 3 month.... Gosh...... What a smart girl!!

Now is fasting month, still as usual, i have to walk from Masjid Jamek to office, hurmm.... trust me... it so so tiring!!! * i do not think anyone here want to try this at home, hahahha*. One thing which make me really happy is, I finish at 5.... hahha..... Cool.....!!!

One more thing, really looking forward for tomorrow, cause im meeting up Waffle *my dear best friends while in college* for buka puasa..... Huuhuuu.... It almost one year++ i did not meet him up.... Wondering, how does he look like now?? Still my same old waffle??? or has changed into a whole new him??? Let's find it out tomorrow...... Hmm.... Itu sahaja luahan hati untuk hari ni.......
Got to go...... Peace!! ('',)v

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I'll stop thinking
And maybe things won't end up sad.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

9 WoRdS W0M3N uSe

(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.

Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F--YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

* Boy this is to warn you about arguments you can avoid if you remember the terminology.

* Gurlz you know to give them a good laugh, cause we know it's true!!!

When A Girl is Quiet

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions .... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds .... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday.... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who .... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends....

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you...

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

This morning, the first thing that flew into my mind when i woke up is, oh it's already morning, again!!! then my mind keep on asking.... shall i go to work?? or not...? Rasa cam tak sihat, but if i'm not going to office, what will happen to my day?? must be daym bored!! So, I decided to get up and get myself ready for my another office day!!

Now updating my blog while having nasi lemak for breakfast... Yer, this nasi lemak taste suck!! What to do then, i'm so hungry now.... Erm... suddenly think back our conversation, all the stories that he told me about his past.... All the bad side of him..... Though, I don't really care!! What past is past, as long as I know that he now is a good person, I accept him for the way he is....

U, if u read my blog, what i want you to know is, I like you the way you are now, you do not have to change anything cause you are you!!! Haha.... We are best friend now!! Teman tapi mesra..... Complicated huh.....!! And That's the story of me and him, complicated relationship and friendship between us... Hahahahaaaa.....

Tuesday, August 18, 2009


Finally finally..... i manage to collect all the strength and be honest to myself, and of cause to him as well!! Surprisingly, both of us is worrying the same thing... ha ha... Funny things.....

Yesterday... 18/08/09.... i will never forget this night.... Lot of unforgettable things happen...... Though we came out with the decision which is : " let it go with the flow...." Still, i wanna shout out loud i started to MISS HIM... So much!!! And maybe.... I do Love him....!! Weeee.... :) Thank God cause now i know... How much he love me too..... ('O') *HAPPY*

Monday, August 17, 2009

Im SiCk!!

Gosh.... Im so sick now..... Headache.... Flu.... Ergh!!!!
Going back home now...... That's all for today... Chow................................

Sunday, August 16, 2009


Weekends has just gone past... Had a great weekends ever!!! Spending some of my precious time hang out with a friend who i really miss.... ha ha... :) this time, i have to be honest to myself..... What my X-best friends told me before is totally true.... I can lie to others, but i can never lie to myself!!! Though i truly understand it now, still, I do not know how to be honest to myself!!Cause everything is seems so blur and confusing now!!!

It is such a pain when you in such condition.... confuse and clueless!! what, why, where, and when does it happened??? all this same question keep playing on my mind again and again!!! And it good enough to ruin up my day!!!

I take whole night to think about it... Yeah.... It really is a pain..... I had it enough!! I have to let him go!!! Not sure since when i fall into the love trap... But what i can tell by now is.... I hate it!!! It's not that i hate love... i do not like the feeling of falling into someone.... Now i finally decide, i have to back off before i fall into the deeper and scarier situation!! I have no choice, i have to do it... cause i know, if i don't try to get over it by now, my life will end with miserable!!!!

Friday, August 14, 2009

Teardrops 0n My Guitar

This is one of Taylor's new song. Back to the very first time i listen to this song, i was so sudden mesmerize by the lyrics!! It's reminds me of someone, seriously and frankly!! The melody is so soothing and relaxing... I love this song.... Really!!! Here... i dedicate this song to 'the person'. And for 'the person' if you read this, thanks for being my very best friend once.... I really love you for being my best friend. Though we are no longer being 'friend', still i miss the old day... All the best to you, and i hope that you have change into a better person now.... :) Till we meet each other again, remember, appreciate people around you, cause once you let them go, it will be hard for you to get it back...... Just like our FRIENDSHIP.......

Specially for you, and enjoy this.......

Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

Thursday, August 13, 2009

It's F.R.i.d.A.Y

Finally Finally!!! It's Friday..... Yippee!!! I L.O.v.3 friday day so much... Y??? Hoho...
Cause I love weekends... i can sleep, eat, and do what ever i want... and most importantly i do not have to wake up early in 6a.m!!! How i wish there will be forever weekends... :P

Now, sitting in front of my PC, updating blog sambil doing research to find endorser for the up coming event.......... Bored...........*bercakap degan harapan takkan terkantoi dengan boss.. :P* Still, i have enough time to plan 'what shall i do tomorrow?' haha.... silly me... But, it cost you nothing to daydreaming right?? :)

Honestly, not sure why?? i really looking forward for tomorrow.... I plan to hang out with one of my friend. I plan to watch alien in the attic, alone, since my friend do not want to come out early. huhu... poor me.... But, a plan is just a plan... still not sure i WILL watch it all by myself or not cause i hate to walk alone. It makes me look like a poor and miserable little girl who doesn't have any friends to walk with..... :D

Ahhh... one hour to go... jom sambung kerja!!!!

Haa.. this is the movie that i want to watch!! YEY!!

What in my Mind N.0.w?

My Cozy bed....
Some Yummy Food.......

And mostly.................. My friends!!!!

In Kuantan AND in Melaka

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I Miss Y.0.u

This poem is specially dedicated for someone that i miss.... So much!!!

You are there
and I am here
thinking about how much
I love you
thinking about how much
I respect you
thinking about how much
I miss you

You are there
and I am here
thinking about how much
I cannot wait
until we are together again
thinking about how
I will appreciate
more than ever
the time
we will spend together
I Miss you

Monday, August 10, 2009


Gosh.... Life is getting more and more frustrated now!!! I need money!! I really need it so badly. It is so damn frustrated since until today, i still haven't receive my allowance money!!!
Ergh... What am i going to do?? I only left Rm5 inside my wallet!! I'm crying out loud now!! Uwaaaaaaaaa.......... :'0


世界万物皆有两面性,不论是什么都有两面性,有好就有坏、有坏就有好,咱们人也是一样,有男就有女,有女就有男,我记得希腊神话中说过,男女找对象,就是再找回失去的另一半。短短的五天相处,却在我心目中留很深很深的印象! 唉!我真的拿我自己没办法呀。离别的时刻终于来临了!! 心情变得好复杂。。。 喜怒哀乐纷纷交插。唉!真是,人有悲欢离合,月有阴晴圆缺,此事古难全,千里共婵娟。心中虽有深深的想念。。。 但就让时间慢慢地冲淡一切不由自主的感情吧!!

Sunday, August 09, 2009

B.L.u.3 MoNdaY

Aaa.... What!!! It's Monday... Again???? oh man... what a day..... Now, I hate Monday more and more!! Today, I have to woke up early in 5.30a.m. , then have to prepared for my loonngg journey to office. From shah alam to KL... Ergh..... Thanks to Allah cause there a kind hearted aunty who give her seat to me, since she saw me can't even stand straight when the bus is moving dur to my super sleepyness!!

my day getting worser since today is Alexis's last day here..... Feel like crying now!!! what am i going to do.....??? i can't cry out loud in the office now............. Someone..... HELP ME..... Im Soooooo SAD now...... :'(

Thursday, August 06, 2009


Haaa.... H1N1.... Satu nama yang sangat famous sekarang nie.... wherever i go, i'll heard peole arond me talk and talk about this scary "creature"!! It's SUCK!!! Still, everyday i still have to travel from gombak to bukit bintang by car, train and and walk..... Huu... honestly, it so damn tiring.... But still, there's no sign of me getting slimmer... haha...

I've been here in this company for my internship for 2 month.... Love everyone here, they're the coolest people ever..... yup, the people here is totally superb..... person that i like the most here, Alexis.... but she's leaving the company next monday.... *sigh* waht am i going to do??? llife without her in office... whenever im blur or bored, i can tell her.... After monday??? hmmm....

For this internship, I really has learnt a lot f new stuff.... Talked to a lot of strangers through all the phone calls *though i really hate it!!!* ahaks.... :P After today, tinggal 1 bulan saje for me to work here... haha..... Happy + sad...... Weird me!!!!

Now, im so bored.... lot of works to do... but doesn't feel like doing it... haha... *alexis sure will kill me if she read my blog, so i have to make sure dia takkan dapat tau about my blog*!! :) 2 and a half hour to go..... Cool!!!

k k... Time for me to continue my work.... CHEER Meim3ssy!!! :D

A Beautiful Tips

FRIENDSHIP : Tips For A Special Relationship

Friendship is a most beautiful thing happened to human being. We all meet some people with whom we never had a kinship, but they become so special in our life that it becomes hard to live without them. Let us see some points we should consider while playing a role in friendship. Many poets have described friendship as one of the most fascinating bond we ever make in our life. It's the most beautiful thing that happens to us.

Friendship is a relation that is entirely based on trust, belief of two friends in each other. We come across many things in our lives, about which we do not tell anything to people near and dear to us, but we freely tell everything to our friends. Many people find good friends but they fail to continue with their friendship, because they do not know their role as a friend.

Let us see some important points that we should take care of if we wish to be good friend for someone:

Be a secrete admirer of your friend:
If your friend is good at something then do not praise him/her in his/her presence. Praising a person for what he/she is good, does not improve his/her qualities, but can cause over-confidence to be induced in him/her, which surely will be harmful for your friend. A good friend should never miss an opportunity to praise his/her friend in front of others when he/she is not around.

Don't proved him/her wrong in public:
As it is important not to praise a friend openly in his/her presence, it is also very much important to abstain from proving him/her wrong in front of other people. Take him/her away from the crowd and let him/her know where he/she is wrong. There is no point in proving your friend wrong in other's presence; it will spoil your friend's image in other's view. And additionally your friendship will be in danger.

Try to understand your friend:
It is always important to understand what your friend is worried about or what problems he/she is facing. Always try to understand the situation your friend is in and try to soothe him/her. It is evident that if people are undergoing some problems, they will not speak up their problems to their brothers or sisters, they will instead tell everything to their friends. Let your friend speak up, just listen to him/her and be with him/her until your friend does not come out of frustration.

Pull Your Friend Away From Making Mistakes:
If your friend is doing something wrong, it is your duty to let him/her know it at earliest. Keep in mind; best friend has to play a role of critic if he/she wants his/her friend to stop doing wrong things. But again keep in mind not to show your friends mistakes in front of other people. Sometimes it is important to understand your friend's intentions behind his/her actions and try to analyze situation, then only you should give your opinion.

The Ego Problem:
Never let ego spoil your friendship. It is no reason to be jealous if your friend is not at all able to speak to you and is with someone else, you have to be his/her friend, do not expect word of gratitude from the person you think is your friend. Sometimes there could be a clash between you and your friend, and you both stop talking to each other for some time, it is not at all wrong to speak first and say sorry to your friend, no matter what happens.

Try to Teach Good Things:
If you are a true friend, you should never give your hungry friend a fish, instead, you should teach him/her how to fish, this will give your friend food for lifetime. A good friend will never wish his/her friend to be dependent on someone.

Do Not Interfere:
Most important point that one should take care of is that your friend has his/her own life and you should not interfere in his/her life. You have a right to tell your friend what is good and what is bad, but you do not have a right to make someone do what you wish. Hope this will help you out solve some of your problems you are facing in friendship.

For my Friends


A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.

- Jean Kyler McManus -

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Erti Bersahabat

Dalam dunia ini,
Kita tidak punya sesiapa kecuali diri sendiri.
Tetapi dalam kita bersendiri,
Kita beruntung kerana mempunyai seorang sahabat yang memahami kita.
Sebagaimana kita mengharapkan keikhlasan dan kejujuran seorang sahabat, begitu juga dia.

Tetapi kita sering terlupa akan hal itu.
Kita cuma mengambil kira tentang harapan dan perasaan kita.
Kita rasa dikhianati bila dia tidak menepati janjinya.
Kita tidak memberi dia peluang untuk menerang keadaannya.
Bagi kita, Itu alasannya untuk menutup kesilapan dan membela diri.
Kita terlupa, kita juga pernah membiarkan dia ternanti-nanti..
Kerana kita juga ada janji yang tidak ditepati.

Kita beri beribu alasan, memaksa dia menerima alasan kita.
Waktu itu, terfikirkah kita tentang perasaannya??
Seperti kita, dia juga tahu rasa kecewa.. tetapi kita sering terlupa.
Untungnya mempunyai seorang kawan yang sentiasa di sisi kita pada waktu kita memerlukan dia.
Dia mendengar luahan perasaan kita, segala rasa kecewa dan ketakutan, harapan dan impian kita luahkan,
Dia memberi jalan sebagai laluan penyelesaian masalah.

Selalunya kita terlalu asyik bercerita tentang diri kita,
Hingga kadang-kadang terlupa kawan kita juga ada cerita yang ingin dikongsi bersama kita.
Pernahkah kita memberi dia peluang untuk menceritakan tentang rasa bimbangnya, rasa takutnya?
Pernahkah kita menenangkan dia sebagaimana dia pernah menyabarkan kita?
Ikhlaskah kita mendengar tentang kejayaan dan berita gembiranya?
Mampukah kita menjadi sumber kekuatannya seperti mana dia meniup semangat setiap kali kita merasa kecewa dan menyerah kalah?
Dapatkah kita yakinkan dia bahawa kita boleh dipercayai, kita boleh dijadikan tempat untuk bersandar bila terasa lemah, agar tidak rebah?
Bolehkah kita menjadi bahu untuk dia sandarkan harapan?
Sesekali jadilah kawan yang mendengar dari yang hanya bercerita.

Ambillah masa untuk memahami hati dan perasaan kawan,
Kerana dia juga seorang manusia; dia juga ada rasa takut, ada rasa bimbang, sedih dan kecewa.
Dia juga ada kelemahan dan Dia juga perlukan kawan sebagai kekuatan.
Jadilah kita kawannya itu. Kita selalu melihat dia ketawa, tetapi mungkin sebenarnya dia tidak setabah yang kita sangka.
Disebalik senyumannya itu, mungkin banyak cerita sedih yang ingin diluahkan,
disebalik kesenangannya, mungkin tersimpan seribu kekalutan,
kita tidak tahu.. tetapi jika kita cuba jadi sahabat seperti dia, mungkin kita akan tahu.

I'm Back

Haaaa... Seems like a thousand year didn't up date my blog.....
huhu..... sejak masuk practikal kat My Events nie.... terus jad malas nk update!! hohoo.....
Well.... that all la..... Ahaks..... :P May i have a great day!!!