Wednesday, February 25, 2009

FoRgIVe n fOrGeT????

Alhamdulillah, everything turn out much better now.... The wheater getting cooler.... and my fever and soar throat is getting much better now!!!! thanks to Dr.fauzi.... and most of all, thanks to Allah for all His kindness.....

Lately, i feels that i REALLY pissed of with some of my classmate...... i do not sure.... is it really my fault???? does that persons entitled to received a forgiveness from me?? I'm not those type of people who often hold a grudge for a long period of time.... but this time...... he and she done too much.....

Honestly, hating someone is not an easy things to do...... everytime i look at the persons that i hate... my heart will suddenly feel badly injured!!!! My heart keep on wondering.... why and why..... but till the end..... I've got nothing....!!! and i start to think..... is this the right way????

In the long run, it's not a question of whether they deserve to be forgiven. I'm not forgiving them for their sake. I'm doing it for myself. For my own health and well-being, forgiveness is simply the most energy-efficient option. It frees myself from the incredibly toxic, debilitating drain of holding a grudge. I'm not letting these people live rent free in my head. If they hurt me before, why should i let them keep doing it day after day in my mind? It's not worth it but it takes heart effort to stop it. I can muster that heart power to forgive them as a way of looking out for myself. It's one thing i be totally selfish about.

Yes..... forgive them... i should and i must..... it's not the matter of i have to.... but it is because i want to..... We should always remember, the weak can never forgive, forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.... :)

Monday, February 23, 2009


Final semester is not an easy semester for me..... laughter and sadness.... Different kind of emotions came to me one by one... Real hope i can overcome each and every one of the emotional problems calmly and professionally...!!!! Ahakss... :)

But for now, the most problem that i have to solve is my health problem...... :(

This month, there's lot and lots of assignment and report i have to settle. On Saturday, i went to alin's house to finish up our report on Business Strategy subject. To come out with a best report, both of us has stayed up until 4am just to finish up the report..... And 'happily', the next morning, when i woke up.... TADA!!!!! I'm having a fever!!! Gosh.... I'm S.I.C.K!!!! what Else can i do???? I'm the chosen one!!

Now I'm suffering for my fever, headache and super soar throat...... and i finally realize, our health is so so important.... cause once we sick, it's so hard for us to do ANYTHING!!!! I hope i can be OK as soon as possible, since this Friday, azlin and i will go to kuantan for our PSN convention ...... Really looking forward on it....!!!

My mid-semester break is around the corner..... Miss my papa and mama so much..... Also miss my cute little sister and chubby little brother.... it almost a month i did not go back to shah alam.... Miss my family so so much.....

Hope everything will get better soon.... And last word from me..... Even though some times people and problems will makes my life so desperate and sucks, still i love every each and one of my day here!!!! And guys.... Pray for me to get well soon..... Love ya..... till fingers meet keyboard again.... :p

Friday, February 20, 2009


Good morning.....!!! Today is such a beautiful weekends, oh.... how much i hope i can lay down on my bed... and sleep, sleep and sleep until Monday morning...... :) how lovely my life can be if i can do that...... But this morning, the first thing in my mind when i woke up is "gosh, my report.... my assignment!!!!" What a headache...... what else can i do.... WAKE UP!!!!!

Came out from the bathroom, my lovely assignment partner, alin, has already reached... yeah... it is time for work!!!! but the most happiest moment is, she does bring lots of yummy foods..... fried noodles and P.I.Z.Z.A!!! such a wonderful breakfast..... :) though having a yummy breakfast start up my day wonderfully, still, my heart is a bit messed up!!

Being a student, it is normal to have lot and lot of work, such as assignment, project and etc.... in order to finish up all these, teamwork is so so important!!!! Having a wonderful partner does help up in lot of ways in the process of finishing the work...... But can you imagine to have people who REALLY cannot cooperate with you to be your group mate??? Trust me, those people will make your life so suffering... they will definitely screw up everything, and everything will turn out *SUCK*!!! (*what i said now is based on my own experience*) :)

In future, i really hope i will only collaborate with person who is worth trusted and of course hardworking..... So that all my so called 'finishing assignment day' will not turn out miserably!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Im Insane!!!

Gosh.... someone... help me... damn hope i can stop complaining about my life!!! But... I can't!! im sooo tired now.... One shoutout for everyone..... PEOPLE!!! Can u guys stop pretending???? cut it off.... just show out your true colour..... let everyone know know who you are...... don't you feel tired??? living in this world.... wearing a mask.... just to hide the true YOU!! If you hate me... Just act lke you really do, pretending is not allowed!! Hahahaha.... ;(

I crystal clearly know and realize, i can't expect everyone to like me.... But i really wondering... HOw can people live their life with full of drama and pretending???? Sometimes, even myself get so bored with myself.... i complaint like an old granma.... complaint and complaint... nagg and nagg.... SHIT!!! What a life....

Hmm.... eventhough sometimes i non stop complaining about my life... But still happiness alwiz looking for a friend... And i know... happiness love me so much.... coz IT always come to me! ;P I don't know where to start to tell bout my happiness.... hah... nvrmnd... I'll share about it next time...... it's getting hot in here... and it's a sign that tell me that :" girls.... it's time for bathing...!" so... what to wait.... got to go... Daa.... ;)

Monday, February 02, 2009

Business and Studies....

It’s been a while since I last updated this blog. Forgive me, but unfortunately quite a lot of different things have been happening that I had to deal with first. Alhamdulillah, everything’s finally settling down now and I can finally get back to my normal, n juz a little bit crazy life... :)

life in melaka is getting better..... for the first time.... i now started to fall in love with my life here!!!! i think maybe is because this is the final semester, so, everyone has started to be nice to one another!!! And besides that, im not only busy with my studies now, i also busy running my business, together with my two buddies or a.k.a partners, alin n anna.... 3 of us selling meilinna perfume.... (hehe... nice name huh... the name is stands for our name, mei alin and anna, combine them, it comes out MEILINNA!!) .

My life now is getting better than before.... now i realise one important things, no matter what happened in our life.... keep looking forward.... yeah, sometimes we DO have to look back, to remember the important lesson that we learnt, but what's in the future is more important!!
Eventhough my life now is a little bit hectic, and can also be describe it is superb tiring, but im gonna live my life to the fullest.... to make my final year at college to be more meaningful, memorable and the most importantly.... Happy!!!

Another things is, MARA is having a Skim Pelajar Cemerlang (SPC). This SPC is where MARA will sponsor all the best students to further their studies abroad.... the moment alin and i heard about it, both of us turns crazily happy because our dreams is going to comes true..... since 1st semester, we really, deadly dream of studying at overseas, especially uk.... and now... YEY... finally..... i have to study harder..... to makes my dreams comes true..... :)