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Thursday, December 03, 2009

Life n Death

Hurm..... Relationship.... It's does drive people crazy sometimes!!!! And this time, it REALLY drive me crazy!!!! Am i doing the right thing?? Choosing the right path??? Once, a friend of mine told me that 'life is where we make a decision, and never look back!!' Yeah that's true, cause it is impossible to change thing that already happened!!!

All this while, i always wonder, is it possible if 2 persons who came from different world, with different background, different way of thinking, be together?? I do hope this whole 'different' thing wouldn't makes thing turn complicated or makes everything upside down!!!

Honestly, i hate the fact of differences between us!!! Two difference people..... Huuu..... Fine, no further comment in my blog!! :0

So messed up, so confused..... Every decision that we are making is in between life and death!!! Cause sometime, some small decision that we made can totally change our whole life!!! Good or bad?? It's all depends on our own decision making!!! Yeah, future is in our hand!! Still, it is such a scary fact!!!

But one fact that couldn't be change is i already rejected the offer!! Gosh!! i can't believe i did that!!! Going to oversea was one of my biggest dream ever!!! and now, i just rejected it as if it mean nothing for me!!! Now, it's seems like i don't even know who am i already!! Pushing my dream away... It's so not me!!! I was self-fish once, and the self-fishness has hurt one of the most important person... Not hoping the same thing will happen again!!!

Thinking and thinking!!! Maybe, I shouldn't regret the decision that I've made!!! i can't just walk away from everyone just like that!!! Papa is getting older now, i can't leave my family behind.... They need me!! And besides that.... i can't leave him too!!! I hope this little sacrifice can makes people around me happier.... Yup!!! It does feel painful now.... but time will washed away everything!!! No matter what happened, life still goes on!!! Let us be thankful with everything around us..... Appreciate it.... And don't let the precious peoples and things slip away....

Cheers for a better tomorrow!!!

Friday, November 20, 2009

The Magic Words= The Proposal.......

Seems like it's been a while did not post anything here.... Miss the old day where i have lot n lots of stuff to share with!!!! Erm.... Life may turn exciting some times, and it just happened to me!!!

16 November 2009.... Has become one of the most precious day for me..... Yeah... It seems quite late to tell now.... Still, i don't care!! hahahha.......

It's been a while i know him, get along together quite well.... Love each other, n always miss each other soo much!!! hahahha..... *Cam gatal kan!!! But that's the fact!!!* But all the time, we still remained as "best friend" ! :) Then everything has changed after meeting him up last weekends.. The feeling is getting stronger..... And finally.... The Magic words that i have been waiting for, finally came out from his mouth!!!!! Though it sounds quite funny, but hey...!! Who cares..... i just love the way he say it!!!! The magic words has become real magical!!! hahah....... <3

So..... what is my answer???? Hahaha..... Guess!!! Siape betul.... Dapat hadiah!!! And dear, if u reading this post..... Never leave any comment ya!!!! If u insist wanna comment... Text me!!! Hahahaha....... Love u a lot.....!!!!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

To all My dearest Friends....

ERTI KAWAN:
SAHABAT(TEMAN)
BERSAUDARA
PENASIHAT
SUSAH SENANG BERSAMA
PENDORONG
SANGGUP BERPISAH KERANA KEBENARAN

2 PERKARA YANG MESTI KITA LUPAKAN
KEBAIKAN KITA PADA ORANG LAIN
KEBURUKAN ORANG LAIN PADA KITA

2 PERKARA YANG MESTI KITA INGAT
KEBURUKAN KITA PADA ORANG LAIN
KEBAIKAN ORANG LAIN PADA KITA

MUTIARA KATA SEORANG SUFI
HAK SEORANG KAWAN
JIKA ENGKAU TIDAK MAMPU MEMBERI BANTUAN KEPADANYA,
JANGANLAH PULA ENGKAU MEMBERI KESUSAHAN KEPADANYA,
JIKA ENGKAU TIDAK MAMPU MENGGEMBIRAKANNYA,
JANGANLAH PULA ENGKAU MENDUKACITAKANNYA,
JIKA ENGKAU TIDAK MAMPU MEMUJINYA,
JANGANLAH PULA ENGKAU MENGEJINYA...

CINTAILAH orang yang engkau cintai sekadarnya saja,
siapa tahu suatu hari nanti ia menjadi orang yang engkau benci pula
BENCILAH orang yang engkau benci sekadarnya saja,
siapa tahu suatu hari nanti ia menjadi orang yang engkau cintai pula
-saidina Ali Abi Talib-

*Artikel asal oleh : Penceramah motivasi Ustaz al-kausar

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My Psychology Personality Test Result =)

Mysterious... oftentimes, a loner. You know your true friends and only them are allowed to understand the real you.

You’re usually expressive... Open about your emotions and most of the time willing to talk about it.

You search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”

You have so many ideas in mind... You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!

You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend... You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!

haha... sure or not??? hurm... let people who know me to decide everything!!! hahaha.....

Sunday, November 08, 2009

What a day????

Hmm.... How i spend my weekend??? What more can i do..... rainy day for whole saturday!! ergh!! What a life!!! Sunday??? Thought wanna go out to meet up with someone, it ends up all of us rush back to Rembau after received a bad bad news- Tok busu has passed away!!! huuuuwaaaa.... What a shocking news..... Really can't believe grandpa has passed away!!! :(

Trust me, yesterday was such a bad bad day!!!!

For this morning, woke up excitedly... Has planned to have breakfast with my lovely papa...... Sadly, the plan has been ruined up!!! The lovely morning ends up with me, arguing with mama!!! What a stressful day!!! Grrr..... feeling blue today!!! That is why i never like monday!!!! Silly me, can't stop crying while updating blog....... i love mama, but sometims she really push me too hard!! It drive me crazy sometimes!!!and today.... It dOES drive me crazy!! ERGHHHHH!!!!!!!

Gosh!!! Where is the person who promise to lend me his shoulder while i'm crying???? I really need him now!!!! *Sob Sob!!!* :'( I hate everyone....... I hate monday!!! To my stupid phone, thanks for not functioning while i really need your service....!! Hmm..... What a day!!!!

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Friendship+Truth+Acceptance+Forgiveness=???

“Understanding is the first step to acceptance, and only with acceptance can there be recovery”


Thought that forgetting and forgiving everything can makes things become just like before..... But seriously, it was such a stupid thinking!! Tried my best to understand the situation, how it's feel.... Still, not manage to do it!! I was totally numb, and blunt!! Cannot understand what is the reason!!! It is Stupid!!! He is such an idiot!! a moron.... naive, silly, dumb, ignorance...!!! Grrr....... Hate to know it!!!

So blind...!! Till now, trying real hard to understand.... Tada....ZERO!! No answers!!! 3 years of friendship.... was totally a waste. Understand??? Nope...!! Can't accept the truth...!! Cause the truth is always so hurt, too cruel, too hard to believe......

How should i treat him??? Same as before, one of the most important friend in life.... As a new person in my life??? or.... Just totally ignore him.... Forget everything... n life just go on as usual...???

Man!!! Pretending is silly!!! Face the truth mei-mei!!! Act like an adult... Stop running away from trouble!!! Yes~!!! That is what i should do!!! Stand still n be strong!!! =D hoho..... Trust me... He is too silly to not realise a person who really care for him.... Trust me.... He will regret it!! Cross my words dude!!!! ;(

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Hmm..... Thought today gonna b a happy day, thinking that things will gonna b ok.... But it's turns out everything is not ok now.... Everything seems turning up side down!! What a hectic life... Sometimes, the truth is unacceptable, it's cruel, it's painful!!! I can't bare the pain any more, it really hurt me inside out...... Why.....???? Why does it has to happened???

This is Simple plan's songs call "untitled". I have changed a little bit of the lyric...... Just to shout out how i feel now....

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm standing here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Monday, October 26, 2009

Graduation Day

Finally n finally, after 3 hard years of struggling and studying, i finally able to finish my study!!! 24th October 2009, one of the most important date in my life. Though all the persons that i love is not able to attend the graduation day, still, thanks to Allah for giving me this good chances to have this tiny little success in my life!! ~~







Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Not Supposed.......

“I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there. I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do... But I'm sorry.... I can't help myself, I'm in love with you....”




Friday, October 16, 2009

ShOck N fInAlLy!!!

It's been almost 1year he walked away from me, left me with million of question, makes me wonder. I always asked my self :" what have i do wrong?? Why dos he has to walk away just like that?? am i really that bad?? why why and why???" the same question has wondering in my mind for such a long time.

Finally, in one night, 'Rinnngggg......" incoming message. Thought that message is from my friend. Then, OMG!!!!! I really cannot believe my eyes. It's him!!!! Telling me how much he missed me, asking me how's life, and much more other freaking heartbreaking questions..... All this time, i thought that i will happy if one day he will call me back and telll me how sorry he is, and how much he missed me. But obviously, I was wrong!!!! Why do he has to come back??? why did he come back after i have decided to let him go and forget everything about him??? Why??

After that night, i finally realise one important thing. He no longer important to me. After all, he already dead in my heart. And thanks to him, I finally realise that how impotant is that 'someone' to me.... :) Sorry if it sounds complicated and weird, but yeah!!!!! i'm so sure now!!! Though he is still trying to contact me lately, but SORRY!! I really HATE him now, I cannot accept him as my friend anymore. Thanks for everything, and please, keep dissappear from my life!!!! He can't blame me for my decision, cause i already told him once. Once i have made a decision, that's it!! There will no turning back. Frankly, I do honestly deeply falling in love with him before, but now, that feeling is no longer for him, cause someone has already took my heart away....... He is the one who has heal my brokenheart. Thanks to my beloved...... =)

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Hello Again....

Erm.... Hello.... Try my best to stop updating my blog...... still.... i can"t..... Love blogging so daym much!!!! Haha.... It seems so long didn't shout out my feelings here.... hurm....

Lately, i really in love with a song..... Fallin for you by Colbie Caillat..... Hurm.... so in love..... It so remind me of someone which getting more n more important to me....... Ahaks.... Im such a fool!!! Im not supose to let this felling go stronger...... Im nothing but just a friend for him..... He love me??? Does he really??? how deep is his feeling for me??? How real is his feeling for me??? And for my self, Am i really seriously wanted to get involve in this relationship??? Is it possible between me and him??? Im so scared the same old thing will happen again.....

Ergh... Life suck.... Sometime, shits does happen..... All i can do is be patient...... :) Enjoy my life, and get more friends!!! That all for tonight...... Bye....

Anyway... Selamat Hari Raya to all my friends....!!!

Thursday, September 03, 2009

My last Day.... Last P0sT.....

Finally... It's my last day here...... Bye bye MyEvents International!!! Really gonna miss you guys so much!!! Especially to Alexis and Svami.... haha..... Million of thanks cause always 'tumpangkan' me to Masjid Jamek. And for the rest, Kak Wyd, Bey, Alphonsa, Andrew, Sherry, Athi, Yoga, Brian, Alex, Thila and yang lain lain... Love YOu Guys!!!! :)




Oh ya... one announcement here.... From today onwards..... i Akan stop update my blog... Why.....?? haha..... Sebab malas!!! Penat la.... asyik nak bagitahu what happened around me..... Will update it again once i feel like i want to.... K... Got to go..... Bye Bye for now.....!!! See you when i see you.... Till fingers meet keyboard..... Ahaks.....

BaD Bad Day!!!!

Yesterday, is the bad day of my life!!! Almost get hit by a stupid car *huh!! nasib baik xjd arwah*, some stupid argument with my friend..... Then wanted to buy new pairs of sandals, but go to few bank, still stupid CIMB's card cannot withdraw money.... It say that "talian tergendala la...." ERgh!!!! What a day!!!! AT night, struggling to finish up my stupid logbook, try so hard but very sleepy!!! For the sake of my result, i push my self to finish it up......

Finally!!! After 2 hour.... The log book is done.... Yey... Sleeping time.... Then again, damn it!!!! Can't sleep.... AiYooo.... APa nie??? Go out, get some fresh air, yaa... Who knows some fresh air to calm ny mind... Still... It doesn't work at all.... Switch on tv... and watch.... until 1.30a.m.... At last, able to get some sleep.....

Suddenly...... RING.......!!!!! What the H***!!! It's already 5..... wake up!!!! Sahur!!! After makan.... ERgh..... can't sleep again!!! ~~i'm so dead~~ (xOx)

One more thing, though tomorrow is my last day here..... Feel a bit sad, coz tomrrow everone eill not be around..... Haaa..... So sad!!!! What a day..... A bad bad day!!!!!

Wednesday, September 02, 2009

Lelaki Itu SusaH

Jika kamu melayannya dengan baik, dia akan fikir kamu jatuh cinta kepadanya
Jika tidak, kamu akan dianggap sombong

Jika kamu berpakaian cantik, dia fakir kamu cuba menggodanya
Jika tidak dia akan kata kamu kekampungan

Jika kamu berdebat dengannya, dia akan kata kamu keras kepala
Jika kamu berdiam diri, dia akan kata kamu tak ada IQ tinggi

Jika kamu lebih pintar daripadanya, dia akan jatuh air muka
Jika dia yang lebih pintar, dia bilang hebat

Jika kamu tidak cinta padanya, dia akan cuba mendapatkan mu bermati-matian
Jika kamu mencintainya, dia akan cuba meninggalkanmu

Jika kamu beritahu masalahmu, dia akan kata kamu menyusahkan
Jika tidak, dia tuduh kamu tidak mempercayainya

Jika kamu caerewet padanya, dia anggap kamu seperti seorang pengasuh
Jika dia yang cerewet pada kamu, itu kerana dia mengambil berat

Jika kamu mungkir janji kamu, kamu tidak boleh dipercayai
Jika dia yang ingkari janjinya, dia melakukan kerana terpaksa

Jika kamu menyakitinya, Kamu sangat kejam
Jika dia yang menyakiti kamu, itu kerana kamu terlalu sensatif dan terlalu sukar untuk dijaga hati


Jika kamu mengirimkan ini pada lelaki-lelaki, mereka pasti bersumpah semua ini tidak benar.

Monday, August 31, 2009

dayDreaming.....

That's how i feel!!! :)

Friday, August 28, 2009

W3irD

Not sure why.... Today feel sad and down.... Sad sad sad.... It's so weird!!!
Hate to feel this way.... Feel like wanna cry out loud......

Maybe i miss my parents, it's been a while i didn't go back to shah alam...... *but they do come to gombak last 2 days... hhaha* And maybe... i really miss him a lot!!! I'm so sure, my feeling for him is growing stronger now, real hope that the feelings is true!!! Still, a bit scared..... It's not that i have no enough confident on him.... but me myself is the biggest problem!!! I do not have the confident in myself, me myself is my biggest enemy!!! What shall i do now?? Can someone please tell me???

He is the one who taught and give me courage to be honest to myself..... yes i did it... Still and why??? Why do i feel so unsecure?? It's seems like i started to feel like i'm alone again.... Everyone is leaving me..... Save me....... Gosh.... Wish he know how much i love and miss him............

Thursday, August 27, 2009

CouNt D0wN

Wee... After tomorrow, there will only left 4 days to go to finish my internship here.... So Excited! But at the same time, feel sad and scared too!!! Wanna know why??? Em... Let me tell u now......

I feel SAD- it is because all the colleague here is nice and great, i love them so much. Here, i would like to say thanks to everyone, kak wyd, Alphonsa, Sherry, Brian, Julie, Svami, Andrew, Bey and others. Ya, not forgetting another 2 who no longer work here, both of them are my everdearest friend and 'Sifu' here, Alexis and alex. Thanks a lot u guys for taking care of me, and taught me a lot during my internship at MyEvents. :)

I feel Scared- For this 3 month, supposedly every week, i have to send my report (logbook) to sherry, sadly until now, i still haven't started to write anything!! Nil!!! Silly me.... Now only 5 days left, and i really have to struggle to finish up the whole report for this 3 month.... Gosh...... What a smart girl!!

Now is fasting month, still as usual, i have to walk from Masjid Jamek to office, hurmm.... trust me... it so so tiring!!! * i do not think anyone here want to try this at home, hahahha*. One thing which make me really happy is, I finish at 5.... hahha..... Cool.....!!!

One more thing, really looking forward for tomorrow, cause im meeting up Waffle *my dear best friends while in college* for buka puasa..... Huuhuuu.... It almost one year++ i did not meet him up.... Wondering, how does he look like now?? Still my same old waffle??? or has changed into a whole new him??? Let's find it out tomorrow...... Hmm.... Itu sahaja luahan hati untuk hari ni.......
Got to go...... Peace!! ('',)v

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I'll stop thinking
And maybe things won't end up sad.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

9 WoRdS W0M3N uSe

(1) Fine: This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes: If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour.

Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing: This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead: This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh: This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay: This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks: A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome' . that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever: Is a woman's way of saying F--YOU!

(9) Don't worry about it, I got it: Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

* Boy this is to warn you about arguments you can avoid if you remember the terminology.

* Gurlz you know to give them a good laugh, cause we know it's true!!!

When A Girl is Quiet

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions .... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds .... she is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday.... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person .....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who .... kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends....

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you...

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

This morning, the first thing that flew into my mind when i woke up is, oh it's already morning, again!!! then my mind keep on asking.... shall i go to work?? or not...? Rasa cam tak sihat, but if i'm not going to office, what will happen to my day?? must be daym bored!! So, I decided to get up and get myself ready for my another office day!!

Now updating my blog while having nasi lemak for breakfast... Yer, this nasi lemak taste suck!! What to do then, i'm so hungry now.... Erm... suddenly think back our conversation, all the stories that he told me about his past.... All the bad side of him..... Though, I don't really care!! What past is past, as long as I know that he now is a good person, I accept him for the way he is....

U, if u read my blog, what i want you to know is, I like you the way you are now, you do not have to change anything cause you are you!!! Haha.... We are best friend now!! Teman tapi mesra..... Complicated huh.....!! And That's the story of me and him, complicated relationship and friendship between us... Hahahahaaaa.....

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

G.LaD......

Finally finally..... i manage to collect all the strength and be honest to myself, and of cause to him as well!! Surprisingly, both of us is worrying the same thing... ha ha... Funny things.....

Yesterday... 18/08/09.... i will never forget this night.... Lot of unforgettable things happen...... Though we came out with the decision which is : " let it go with the flow...." Still, i wanna shout out loud i started to MISS HIM... So much!!! And maybe.... I do Love him....!! Weeee.... :) Thank God cause now i know... How much he love me too..... ('O') *HAPPY*

Monday, August 17, 2009

Im SiCk!!

Gosh.... Im so sick now..... Headache.... Flu.... Ergh!!!!
Going back home now...... That's all for today... Chow................................

Sunday, August 16, 2009

M.E.I

Weekends has just gone past... Had a great weekends ever!!! Spending some of my precious time hang out with a friend who i really miss.... ha ha... :) this time, i have to be honest to myself..... What my X-best friends told me before is totally true.... I can lie to others, but i can never lie to myself!!! Though i truly understand it now, still, I do not know how to be honest to myself!!Cause everything is seems so blur and confusing now!!!

It is such a pain when you in such condition.... confuse and clueless!! what, why, where, and when does it happened??? all this same question keep playing on my mind again and again!!! And it good enough to ruin up my day!!!

I take whole night to think about it... Yeah.... It really is a pain..... I had it enough!! I have to let him go!!! Not sure since when i fall into the love trap... But what i can tell by now is.... I hate it!!! It's not that i hate love... i do not like the feeling of falling into someone.... Now i finally decide, i have to back off before i fall into the deeper and scarier situation!! I have no choice, i have to do it... cause i know, if i don't try to get over it by now, my life will end with miserable!!!!

Friday, August 14, 2009

Teardrops 0n My Guitar

This is one of Taylor's new song. Back to the very first time i listen to this song, i was so sudden mesmerize by the lyrics!! It's reminds me of someone, seriously and frankly!! The melody is so soothing and relaxing... I love this song.... Really!!! Here... i dedicate this song to 'the person'. And for 'the person' if you read this, thanks for being my very best friend once.... I really love you for being my best friend. Though we are no longer being 'friend', still i miss the old day... All the best to you, and i hope that you have change into a better person now.... :) Till we meet each other again, remember, appreciate people around you, cause once you let them go, it will be hard for you to get it back...... Just like our FRIENDSHIP.......

Specially for you, and enjoy this.......


Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

Thursday, August 13, 2009

It's F.R.i.d.A.Y

Finally Finally!!! It's Friday..... Yippee!!! I L.O.v.3 friday day so much... Y??? Hoho...
Cause I love weekends... i can sleep, eat, and do what ever i want... and most importantly i do not have to wake up early in 6a.m!!! How i wish there will be forever weekends... :P

Now, sitting in front of my PC, updating blog sambil doing research to find endorser for the up coming event.......... Bored...........*bercakap degan harapan takkan terkantoi dengan boss.. :P* Still, i have enough time to plan 'what shall i do tomorrow?' haha.... silly me... But, it cost you nothing to daydreaming right?? :)

Honestly, not sure why?? i really looking forward for tomorrow.... I plan to hang out with one of my friend. I plan to watch alien in the attic, alone, since my friend do not want to come out early. huhu... poor me.... But, a plan is just a plan... still not sure i WILL watch it all by myself or not cause i hate to walk alone. It makes me look like a poor and miserable little girl who doesn't have any friends to walk with..... :D

Ahhh... one hour to go... jom sambung kerja!!!!


Haa.. this is the movie that i want to watch!! YEY!!

What in my Mind N.0.w?

My Cozy bed....
Some Yummy Food.......



And mostly.................. My friends!!!!


In Kuantan AND in Melaka

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I Miss Y.0.u

This poem is specially dedicated for someone that i miss.... So much!!!

You are there
and I am here
thinking about how much
I love you
thinking about how much
I respect you
thinking about how much
I miss you

You are there
and I am here
thinking about how much
I cannot wait
until we are together again
thinking about how
I will appreciate
more than ever
the time
we will spend together
I Miss you

Monday, August 10, 2009

M.o.N.3.y

Gosh.... Life is getting more and more frustrated now!!! I need money!! I really need it so badly. It is so damn frustrated since until today, i still haven't receive my allowance money!!!
Ergh... What am i going to do?? I only left Rm5 inside my wallet!! I'm crying out loud now!! Uwaaaaaaaaa.......... :'0

离别

世界万物皆有两面性,不论是什么都有两面性,有好就有坏、有坏就有好,咱们人也是一样,有男就有女,有女就有男,我记得希腊神话中说过,男女找对象,就是再找回失去的另一半。短短的五天相处,却在我心目中留很深很深的印象! 唉!我真的拿我自己没办法呀。离别的时刻终于来临了!! 心情变得好复杂。。。 喜怒哀乐纷纷交插。唉!真是,人有悲欢离合,月有阴晴圆缺,此事古难全,千里共婵娟。心中虽有深深的想念。。。 但就让时间慢慢地冲淡一切不由自主的感情吧!!

Sunday, August 09, 2009

B.L.u.3 MoNdaY

Aaa.... What!!! It's Monday... Again???? oh man... what a day..... Now, I hate Monday more and more!! Today, I have to woke up early in 5.30a.m. , then have to prepared for my loonngg journey to office. From shah alam to KL... Ergh..... Thanks to Allah cause there a kind hearted aunty who give her seat to me, since she saw me can't even stand straight when the bus is moving dur to my super sleepyness!!

my day getting worser since today is Alexis's last day here..... Feel like crying now!!! what am i going to do.....??? i can't cry out loud in the office now............. Someone..... HELP ME..... Im Soooooo SAD now...... :'(

Thursday, August 06, 2009

B.o.R.3.d..........

Haaa.... H1N1.... Satu nama yang sangat famous sekarang nie.... wherever i go, i'll heard peole arond me talk and talk about this scary "creature"!! It's SUCK!!! Still, everyday i still have to travel from gombak to bukit bintang by car, train and and walk..... Huu... honestly, it so damn tiring.... But still, there's no sign of me getting slimmer... haha...

I've been here in this company for my internship for 2 month.... Love everyone here, they're the coolest people ever..... yup, the people here is totally superb..... person that i like the most here, Alexis.... but she's leaving the company next monday.... *sigh* waht am i going to do??? llife without her in office... whenever im blur or bored, i can tell her.... After monday??? hmmm....

For this internship, I really has learnt a lot f new stuff.... Talked to a lot of strangers through all the phone calls *though i really hate it!!!* ahaks.... :P After today, tinggal 1 bulan saje for me to work here... haha..... Happy + sad...... Weird me!!!!

Now, im so bored.... lot of works to do... but doesn't feel like doing it... haha... *alexis sure will kill me if she read my blog, so i have to make sure dia takkan dapat tau about my blog*!! :) 2 and a half hour to go..... Cool!!!

k k... Time for me to continue my work.... CHEER Meim3ssy!!! :D

A Beautiful Tips

FRIENDSHIP : Tips For A Special Relationship

Friendship is a most beautiful thing happened to human being. We all meet some people with whom we never had a kinship, but they become so special in our life that it becomes hard to live without them. Let us see some points we should consider while playing a role in friendship. Many poets have described friendship as one of the most fascinating bond we ever make in our life. It's the most beautiful thing that happens to us.

Friendship is a relation that is entirely based on trust, belief of two friends in each other. We come across many things in our lives, about which we do not tell anything to people near and dear to us, but we freely tell everything to our friends. Many people find good friends but they fail to continue with their friendship, because they do not know their role as a friend.

Let us see some important points that we should take care of if we wish to be good friend for someone:

Be a secrete admirer of your friend:
If your friend is good at something then do not praise him/her in his/her presence. Praising a person for what he/she is good, does not improve his/her qualities, but can cause over-confidence to be induced in him/her, which surely will be harmful for your friend. A good friend should never miss an opportunity to praise his/her friend in front of others when he/she is not around.

Don't proved him/her wrong in public:
As it is important not to praise a friend openly in his/her presence, it is also very much important to abstain from proving him/her wrong in front of other people. Take him/her away from the crowd and let him/her know where he/she is wrong. There is no point in proving your friend wrong in other's presence; it will spoil your friend's image in other's view. And additionally your friendship will be in danger.

Try to understand your friend:
It is always important to understand what your friend is worried about or what problems he/she is facing. Always try to understand the situation your friend is in and try to soothe him/her. It is evident that if people are undergoing some problems, they will not speak up their problems to their brothers or sisters, they will instead tell everything to their friends. Let your friend speak up, just listen to him/her and be with him/her until your friend does not come out of frustration.

Pull Your Friend Away From Making Mistakes:
If your friend is doing something wrong, it is your duty to let him/her know it at earliest. Keep in mind; best friend has to play a role of critic if he/she wants his/her friend to stop doing wrong things. But again keep in mind not to show your friends mistakes in front of other people. Sometimes it is important to understand your friend's intentions behind his/her actions and try to analyze situation, then only you should give your opinion.

The Ego Problem:
Never let ego spoil your friendship. It is no reason to be jealous if your friend is not at all able to speak to you and is with someone else, you have to be his/her friend, do not expect word of gratitude from the person you think is your friend. Sometimes there could be a clash between you and your friend, and you both stop talking to each other for some time, it is not at all wrong to speak first and say sorry to your friend, no matter what happens.

Try to Teach Good Things:
If you are a true friend, you should never give your hungry friend a fish, instead, you should teach him/her how to fish, this will give your friend food for lifetime. A good friend will never wish his/her friend to be dependent on someone.

Do Not Interfere:
Most important point that one should take care of is that your friend has his/her own life and you should not interfere in his/her life. You have a right to tell your friend what is good and what is bad, but you do not have a right to make someone do what you wish. Hope this will help you out solve some of your problems you are facing in friendship.

For my Friends

Friends

A friend is someone we turn to
when our spirits need a lift.
A friend is someone we treasure
for our friendship is a gift.
A friend is someone who fills our lives
with beauty, joy, and grace.
And makes the whole world we live in
a better and happier place.

- Jean Kyler McManus -

Wednesday, August 05, 2009

Erti Bersahabat

Dalam dunia ini,
Kita tidak punya sesiapa kecuali diri sendiri.
Tetapi dalam kita bersendiri,
Kita beruntung kerana mempunyai seorang sahabat yang memahami kita.
Sebagaimana kita mengharapkan keikhlasan dan kejujuran seorang sahabat, begitu juga dia.


Tetapi kita sering terlupa akan hal itu.
Kita cuma mengambil kira tentang harapan dan perasaan kita.
Kita rasa dikhianati bila dia tidak menepati janjinya.
Kita tidak memberi dia peluang untuk menerang keadaannya.
Bagi kita, Itu alasannya untuk menutup kesilapan dan membela diri.
Kita terlupa, kita juga pernah membiarkan dia ternanti-nanti..
Kerana kita juga ada janji yang tidak ditepati.


Kita beri beribu alasan, memaksa dia menerima alasan kita.
Waktu itu, terfikirkah kita tentang perasaannya??
Seperti kita, dia juga tahu rasa kecewa.. tetapi kita sering terlupa.
Untungnya mempunyai seorang kawan yang sentiasa di sisi kita pada waktu kita memerlukan dia.
Dia mendengar luahan perasaan kita, segala rasa kecewa dan ketakutan, harapan dan impian kita luahkan,
Dia memberi jalan sebagai laluan penyelesaian masalah.


Selalunya kita terlalu asyik bercerita tentang diri kita,
Hingga kadang-kadang terlupa kawan kita juga ada cerita yang ingin dikongsi bersama kita.
Pernahkah kita memberi dia peluang untuk menceritakan tentang rasa bimbangnya, rasa takutnya?
Pernahkah kita menenangkan dia sebagaimana dia pernah menyabarkan kita?
Ikhlaskah kita mendengar tentang kejayaan dan berita gembiranya?
Mampukah kita menjadi sumber kekuatannya seperti mana dia meniup semangat setiap kali kita merasa kecewa dan menyerah kalah?
Dapatkah kita yakinkan dia bahawa kita boleh dipercayai, kita boleh dijadikan tempat untuk bersandar bila terasa lemah, agar tidak rebah?
Bolehkah kita menjadi bahu untuk dia sandarkan harapan?
Sesekali jadilah kawan yang mendengar dari yang hanya bercerita.


Ambillah masa untuk memahami hati dan perasaan kawan,
Kerana dia juga seorang manusia; dia juga ada rasa takut, ada rasa bimbang, sedih dan kecewa.
Dia juga ada kelemahan dan Dia juga perlukan kawan sebagai kekuatan.
Jadilah kita kawannya itu. Kita selalu melihat dia ketawa, tetapi mungkin sebenarnya dia tidak setabah yang kita sangka.
Disebalik senyumannya itu, mungkin banyak cerita sedih yang ingin diluahkan,
disebalik kesenangannya, mungkin tersimpan seribu kekalutan,
kita tidak tahu.. tetapi jika kita cuba jadi sahabat seperti dia, mungkin kita akan tahu.

I'm Back

Haaaa... Seems like a thousand year didn't up date my blog.....
huhu..... sejak masuk practikal kat My Events nie.... terus jad malas nk update!! hohoo.....
Well.... that all la..... Ahaks..... :P May i have a great day!!!

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Final Exam

Yey..... Finally, my last final exam has started four days ago.... First paper, International Business.... Damn sucks!!! Second paper, operation management, erm..... this second paper quite ok i think!!!

Oh, four paper to go... Then, Goodbye college, haha..... :D

Tomorrow, another paper... Managing New Venture. Still, have extra time sitting here updating blog... haha.... so relaxing!!!! huh... wish me all the besst for this final, and for my coming industrial training.... huahua..... really looking forward on it...... :) though it so damn scary.... :(

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

CRusH + loVe = Pain

Have you ever fall in love with a person??? Silently.......
No one know about it... and you just can't share it with anyone....
Trust me, it is so hard to bear the pain!!
One happiness that you can's share with anyone....
Man.... now i finally realize how much he meant to me....
Every words that cames out from his mouth, juz seems like he's singing a love song for me....
haha.... i do sounds like a crazy person huh!!!
But one thing that im real sure.... we're impossible.... it just my fairy tale dreams to have him being the prince charming, the knight and shining armour in my life... silly me....
But i think it's enough for me to see him laugh, to see his eyes.... even for a moment., or just a second.... that's enough....
Tell him the truth??? Do i have to do so?? Naa... dun think i have enough courage to do so..... Nvrmnd.... just let it be..... things will turns better someday... Someday sometimes.... Though a crush for a friend is not an easy and happy thing to admit..... And by knowing one truth that he will never remember about my existance someday..... still...... ANd honestly..... he will always be the puzzle of my heart....... a puzzle that will never complete.... till the end of time.......

Finally.... Im truely and honestly will always pray for your happiness.... With the queen of your heart......

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Buzyness, tiredness & sleepyness.......

The end of semester is coming, clearly, final exam is just around the corner....
Still, I'm not in any preparation yet!! tons of assignment is not submitted yet.
Everyday rushing here and there, just to complete the assignments that have been given by lecturer few month before.... Gosh!! last minutes work.... even though in a rush to finishing them... still my groups mate and i have do it to the max.... hope we have done a great job... even though its last minute work.... haha......
First paper for final will start on 4th of may.... international business.... Man!! so scary.... Hope my last Exam will run smoothly..... Last minutes preparation... Not to worry... i think i really good in it.... haha..... erm... this silly attitude, i think i really have to throw it away before i go for my industrial training on June... huhu....
Guys.... wish me all the best for everything... My last semester in KPMM!! though i hate being here, i still hope everything will ends happily..... =)
oh... gonna rush to Pn Amalina's class..... Got to go them.... chow..............

Monday, April 13, 2009

I need my LAOPTOP.......

Last week, my 'ever dearest' brother called me.... and tell me that he wanted to borrow my laptop so badly..... since he is my only big bro.... i've decide to borrow my most precious "hunny" to him......
Now, it's really makes my life so desperate..... i need my "hunny" soo much!! lots and lots of assignment is queing up for its due date..... hurm........ what a life without my laptop..... :(

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

B.a.D DAY

Oh..... What a hectic day lately..... Assignment, test and quizzes and etc..... Just like Other students... A normal boring life...... huhu...... :)

Today is such a 'silly' day for me..... Now i finally realise, i really ARE a biggest and clumsiest person in the whole wide world.....!!! The story started in the afternoon, around 12.30pm..... Let me just straight to the point.... i fell while walking..... so ugly..... and things just get worst cause there's a guy, saw the 'show'!!! Even though he asked me am i OK.... I'm sure, deep inside his heart... He DOES laugh at me........ Arghhh.... Silly me......!!!!

Now, i really hope that i won't bump into him ever again.... Even his friends to.... It's so damn embarrassing!!!! Im not really sure is he telling his friends about the scenario.... Hopefully not.... But i think....... MAN....... I'M now the biggest clown..... clumsy and superb blurr..... gosh.... can someone tell me..... what can i do to get rid of my clumsiness...... :'(

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Good Deed

Whoever aims to do a good deed
but does not do it,
Allah writes down for him a good deed,
but if he aims and does it,
Allah writes it down for him
as ten good deeds,
up to seven hundred times
and even many more times.


Fear Allah wherever you are,
follow up a bad deed with a good one
and it will wipe out the bad deed,
and behave towards people.

Friday, March 20, 2009

Letting Go????

I believe, everyone have their own dreams. But, to fulfill each and everyone of our dreams...... It is one of the challenge in our life. Like everyone, i do have my little princess dreams. There's so many things i want to do before my one last breath, travelling all around the world, bungee jump, and lots more!! *i don't think i shall list out everything here, hehe..... ;p*
But lately, it seems like my dreams is getting further and further!! It almost like hard for me to garb the opportunity that just in front of my eyes. Yeah, it sounds like a total dumb to let go the precious opportunity, but, this is what we called 'prima-facie', an obligation that can be overridden by a more important obligation.
Growing up is an of course for everyone. In the process of growing up, it may comes out with lots of sweet and sour memory, it will be a big lie if someone tell you that he never have any sweet or bad memory!!! Neither do i!! I have a one simple happy family and a simple life as a student. But to be frank, i hate to grow up!!! I really hope i can be a little girl, forever........ Growing up mean that more responsible...... sometimes i feel tired...... My life is so tiring...... Problems keep on coming...... Like machine gun..... Non-stop!!!
I always wonder..... Why lately my life getting more and more miserable??? Why does all this happened to my...... I do know, everything that happened in our life have it's own reason. As what the old people said 'ada hikmah di disebaliknyer'! But...... my life is suck!!! I'm so so tired..... Ya Allah, give me some strenght, so that i can get thru all this smoothly and meaningfully.......

Thursday, March 19, 2009

C.R.A.z.z.Y.n.e.S.S


Lately....... im not sure what happened to me....... I think im getting a little bit 'crazy'. Hehe..... :P
Few days ago, one of my friend really pissed-off cause i have done something quite silly towards him.... now i think he getting a bit angry cause he refuse to talk to me for a few days already..... Haha.... though im feel sad..... still..... im quite happy cause its actually shine up my life when i make him angry..... ahaks...... :) love to see his face when he pissed-off!!!! Here, to my dear angry friend, im so sorry for making you so angry..... :) no matter how angry you are.... i'll always love you!!!!

And one more thing, im not sure why...... someone capture my interest..... He's not a handsome person...... For me, i love looking at smart, cute, good-looking guy..... But for this guy...... he's not cute, not good looking and quite shaggy looking...... Still....... It's as if he got some aura around him..... makes me wanna know more and more about him....... haha......... *im talking like a org gatal, huh!!!!* ;p

oh yeah..... not to forget. My college's principle has organize one programme call 'peers teaching programme'. This programme is where a better result student will take responsible as a tutor to tutor their friends or juniors. Now i am a tutor to 3 of my juniors. I do feel happy cause i can help them to study, with hope they will get better result.... But what really upset me is..... i do not know who they are..... This is because all this menteee is given by our lecturer....... And honestly, im quite afraid.... How to be a good 'teacher'???? Can i actually get along with them???? Who they are????? how to guide them??? MAN!!! im so nervous!!!! huhu.........

Wish me all the best.... and hope my craziness will heal soon...... The sooner, the better... ahakz.... chow!!! :)

Monday, March 16, 2009

Quotes Of the Day

-Alice Walker-
Expect nothing, live frugally on surprise.


-Anias Nin-
Dreams pass into the reality of action. From the actions stems the dream again; and this interdependence produces the highest form of living.


-Bertrand Russell-
Three passions have governed my life:
The longings for love, the search for knowledge, And unbearable pity for the suffering of humankind.

Love brings ecstasy and relieves loneliness.
In the union of love I have seen
In a mystic miniature the prefiguring vision
Of the heavens that saints and poets have imagined.

With equal passion I have sought knowledge.
I have wished to understand the hearts of people.
I have wished to know why the stars shine.

Love and knowledge led upwards to the heavens,
But always pity brought me back to earth;
Cries of pain reverberated in my heart
Of children in famine, of victims tortured
And of old people left helpless.
I long to alleviate the evil, but I cannot,
And I too suffer.

This has been my life; I found it worth living.


-Elie Wiesel-
The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

memory at KPMIM



27 Feb 2009....... is the day where i went to KPMIM for the very first time......... the purpose of going there is to attend the Persatuan Siswa Niaga convention...... At first, going there was a biggest nightmare ever..... but... after spending some precious time, with my bff, alin and both 'new' friends, fafa and dang..... i realize...... it's not that bad... actually..... i think everyone quite enjoy our self...... and most important thing is... i get to know a few new friends who are nice, polite, graceful and cute!!!! what ever it is...... 3 days at IM, kuantan is such a wonderful memory for me...... :)

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

FoRgIVe n fOrGeT????

Alhamdulillah, everything turn out much better now.... The wheater getting cooler.... and my fever and soar throat is getting much better now!!!! thanks to Dr.fauzi.... and most of all, thanks to Allah for all His kindness.....


Lately, i feels that i REALLY pissed of with some of my classmate...... i do not sure.... is it really my fault???? does that persons entitled to received a forgiveness from me?? I'm not those type of people who often hold a grudge for a long period of time.... but this time...... he and she done too much.....


Honestly, hating someone is not an easy things to do...... everytime i look at the persons that i hate... my heart will suddenly feel badly injured!!!! My heart keep on wondering.... why and why..... but till the end..... I've got nothing....!!! and i start to think..... is this the right way????


In the long run, it's not a question of whether they deserve to be forgiven. I'm not forgiving them for their sake. I'm doing it for myself. For my own health and well-being, forgiveness is simply the most energy-efficient option. It frees myself from the incredibly toxic, debilitating drain of holding a grudge. I'm not letting these people live rent free in my head. If they hurt me before, why should i let them keep doing it day after day in my mind? It's not worth it but it takes heart effort to stop it. I can muster that heart power to forgive them as a way of looking out for myself. It's one thing i be totally selfish about.


Yes..... forgive them... i should and i must..... it's not the matter of i have to.... but it is because i want to..... We should always remember, the weak can never forgive, forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.... :)

Monday, February 23, 2009

FeVEr.......


Final semester is not an easy semester for me..... laughter and sadness.... Different kind of emotions came to me one by one... Real hope i can overcome each and every one of the emotional problems calmly and professionally...!!!! Ahakss... :)

But for now, the most problem that i have to solve is my health problem...... :(


This month, there's lot and lots of assignment and report i have to settle. On Saturday, i went to alin's house to finish up our report on Business Strategy subject. To come out with a best report, both of us has stayed up until 4am just to finish up the report..... And 'happily', the next morning, when i woke up.... TADA!!!!! I'm having a fever!!! Gosh.... I'm S.I.C.K!!!! what Else can i do???? I'm the chosen one!!


Now I'm suffering for my fever, headache and super soar throat...... and i finally realize, our health is so so important.... cause once we sick, it's so hard for us to do ANYTHING!!!! I hope i can be OK as soon as possible, since this Friday, azlin and i will go to kuantan for our PSN convention ...... Really looking forward on it....!!!


My mid-semester break is around the corner..... Miss my papa and mama so much..... Also miss my cute little sister and chubby little brother.... it almost a month i did not go back to shah alam.... Miss my family so so much.....


Hope everything will get better soon.... And last word from me..... Even though some times people and problems will makes my life so desperate and sucks, still i love every each and one of my day here!!!! And guys.... Pray for me to get well soon..... Love ya..... till fingers meet keyboard again.... :p

Friday, February 20, 2009

T.e.A.MwOrk........


Good morning.....!!! Today is such a beautiful weekends, oh.... how much i hope i can lay down on my bed... and sleep, sleep and sleep until Monday morning...... :) how lovely my life can be if i can do that...... But this morning, the first thing in my mind when i woke up is "gosh, my report.... my assignment!!!!" What a headache...... what else can i do.... WAKE UP!!!!!

Came out from the bathroom, my lovely assignment partner, alin, has already reached... yeah... it is time for work!!!! but the most happiest moment is, she does bring lots of yummy foods..... fried noodles and P.I.Z.Z.A!!! such a wonderful breakfast..... :) though having a yummy breakfast start up my day wonderfully, still, my heart is a bit messed up!!

Being a student, it is normal to have lot and lot of work, such as assignment, project and etc.... in order to finish up all these, teamwork is so so important!!!! Having a wonderful partner does help up in lot of ways in the process of finishing the work...... But can you imagine to have people who REALLY cannot cooperate with you to be your group mate??? Trust me, those people will make your life so suffering... they will definitely screw up everything, and everything will turn out *SUCK*!!! (*what i said now is based on my own experience*) :)

In future, i really hope i will only collaborate with person who is worth trusted and of course hardworking..... So that all my so called 'finishing assignment day' will not turn out miserably!!!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Im Insane!!!


Gosh.... someone... help me... damn hope i can stop complaining about my life!!! But... I can't!! im sooo tired now.... One shoutout for everyone..... PEOPLE!!! Can u guys stop pretending???? cut it off.... just show out your true colour..... let everyone know know who you are...... don't you feel tired??? living in this world.... wearing a mask.... just to hide the true YOU!! If you hate me... Just act lke you really do, pretending is not allowed!! Hahahaha.... ;(


I crystal clearly know and realize, i can't expect everyone to like me.... But i really wondering... HOw can people live their life with full of drama and pretending???? Sometimes, even myself get so bored with myself.... i complaint like an old granma.... complaint and complaint... nagg and nagg.... SHIT!!! What a life....


Hmm.... eventhough sometimes i non stop complaining about my life... But still happiness alwiz looking for a friend... And i know... happiness love me so much.... coz IT always come to me! ;P I don't know where to start to tell bout my happiness.... hah... nvrmnd... I'll share about it next time...... it's getting hot in here... and it's a sign that tell me that :" girls.... it's time for bathing...!" so... what to wait.... got to go... Daa.... ;)

Monday, February 02, 2009

Business and Studies....

It’s been a while since I last updated this blog. Forgive me, but unfortunately quite a lot of different things have been happening that I had to deal with first. Alhamdulillah, everything’s finally settling down now and I can finally get back to my normal, n juz a little bit crazy life... :)

life in melaka is getting better..... for the first time.... i now started to fall in love with my life here!!!! i think maybe is because this is the final semester, so, everyone has started to be nice to one another!!! And besides that, im not only busy with my studies now, i also busy running my business, together with my two buddies or a.k.a partners, alin n anna.... 3 of us selling meilinna perfume.... (hehe... nice name huh... the name is stands for our name, mei alin and anna, combine them, it comes out MEILINNA!!) .

My life now is getting better than before.... now i realise one important things, no matter what happened in our life.... keep looking forward.... yeah, sometimes we DO have to look back, to remember the important lesson that we learnt, but what's in the future is more important!!
Eventhough my life now is a little bit hectic, and can also be describe it is superb tiring, but im gonna live my life to the fullest.... to make my final year at college to be more meaningful, memorable and the most importantly.... Happy!!!

Another things is, MARA is having a Skim Pelajar Cemerlang (SPC). This SPC is where MARA will sponsor all the best students to further their studies abroad.... the moment alin and i heard about it, both of us turns crazily happy because our dreams is going to comes true..... since 1st semester, we really, deadly dream of studying at overseas, especially uk.... and now... YEY... finally..... i have to study harder..... to makes my dreams comes true..... :)

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

My new and final semester......

New year has finally come, holiday has finally ended... no more sweet honeymoon year.....

This new sem will be my last semester study in this college!! Final sem... it will be a totally hectic sem for me.....

now... i need money for my study desperately.... so... i've think of so many idea to find some pocket money.... think and think... i finally found out wit a fabulous idea... now, i am a full time student... wait a part time business.......

im now selling perfume with my business partner, azlin and ana.... We're selling a perfume call 'ONE DROP PERFUMe". It's a nice perfume, personally, i love it so damm much!!!! And for future plan... we're gonna try to sell it online...... hahahha...... ;) hope this year, i can b a better person.......

Im now trying so hard to forget all the bad memory..... i wanna forget d guy who took away my heart... and smash it into million pieces..... love is such a lie.... it alwiz makes me wonder.... Is true love really exist???? y does all this happen to me??? hurm....